Lol did someone forget to tell you that your girlfriend was a crazy bitch. After all this time if you havent gotten that your gonna need to get your shit together.
Kerry I love you! :’) Source: lifecarriesmeawayI really don’t know how I’m going to last these next 7 days. Will I survive this?
I’m leaving the hallowed halls of Oakcrest High School 7 days from today. Today was my last day of real class - senior week starts tomorrow.
I walked in just as everyone was breaking down in drama lunch, and now…
the overly symbolic moment when the lights make a heart on the stage…
graduation is in less than a week :(
(via lifecarriesmeaway)
Source: theaterlover94
It’s hard because sometimes it feels like your the only one that understands.
I don’t think you understand. I don’t think you have the slightest idea about me. The resentment that has grown in me toward you is sometimes unbearable, and you have no idea. I never thought people like you existed, that people who only ever dotted the I’s and crossing the t’s of their own agenda, without regard or care for anyone else.
What bothers me the most is that these resentful feelings have become malignant and have infected not only the bad choices you have made when it comes to me and people I love, but all the positive memories I’ve had with you too. Your image in my mind is suddenly clouded with smog, and it’s becomes more difficult to see you everyday. I am very frightened of the day when I look to find that all which remains is a thick black shadow. A figure that was once a loving, carefree, passionate human being that perfectly complemented my unblemished life. I dont know what happened but I’m finally starting to see that what I once saw as loving, carefree, and passionate is actually self concerned, frivolous, and obsessive compulsive, and I hate it.
Sometimes I listen to the things you say and underneath the words I start to hear the bullshit. The empty promises, the threatening ideas, and the selfishness you have slowly but surely instilled in us. The person everyone else sees is so fake. Petty High school girl fake and every disgusting word that slips out of your mouth makes me so angry because it’s so slyly concealed by a fictional cape you must have worked your entire life to construct.
Now when I endure your lectures I pay more attention, to all of the things I hope to never become. I pay attention cloaked by ambiguity and authority.
But it shouldn’t be this way. You should not be able to make people feel worthless, like everything they’ve ever done and are doing is never going to be enough. You should not be able to talk down to people about their personalities, their tendencies, or wishes because they don’t happen to suit you. You should not constantly talk out your own ass about things you know nothing about, and shove your opinion down my throat because somehow you’ve justified that it’s all for my own good.
No.
As much as you may not like it I am going to be my own person and make my own decisions. Starting now I will take every “sincere” word you have to say Asa suggestion that I may or may not take, because guess what, you have stepped out of your designated life role, and since the rules have changed in your little game, I intend to change with them. But don’t worry you have my permission to linger under the delusion that i will do everything you tell me and maybe I’ll even be convincing.
I’m sorry, but this is wrong, you are wrong,what you say is just all wrong and I’m tired. Tired of waking up every single day hoping that I can evade your presence comments. Tired of crying because your expectations are unorthodox and impractical. Maybe it’s to my place to tell you this, but I’m done feeling bad for myself. So you go ahead and continue your life as you wish, but as of now I’m removing myself from the situation.
-Olivia.